习惯了高铁以后有点不是很喜欢开车了，虽然站点还是蛮远的，据说九月尾就有新的近的了。有新干线的错觉，不过整体的风格等感觉还是不一样。
强迫性重复，嗯，之前瞄过一些非学术类文章，居然将之拔高到称为命运那种程度。大体意思就是，由于这个个体有着这方面的特性特征且不断强化循环，所以该个体的遭遇会陷入一种类似于轮回的轨迹那样。也就是说，我自盛开，什么清风自来之类的。就是表述的角度、心境、纬度不大一样，但似乎都是一回事。
自己感觉的话，嗯，曾经的年少轻狂，会有很多的畅想，突发奇想等，但是年纪到了一定程度以后，似乎不仅是器官老化，感官也是会老化的。记得有一段电影的line，说人类过了一定岁数以后其实已经不能算是活着了，更多的是以其构建的长期习惯而延续着生命而已。emmm, well said.
援引一下call me by your name 中的一段长对白，作为今日blog的ending.
We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster that we go bankrupt by the age 30, and less to offer each time we start with someone new, but to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything. What a waste.
Just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once, and before you know it, your heart is worn out; and as for your body, there comes to a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now, there’s sorrow, pain, don’t kill it, and with it, the joy you felt.
Film <Call me by your name>
