Had been in a rush in these few days, it felt like the urge was pouring out to push me, do it fast, quick, clean, otherwise I would be so upset as me being useless. Although it might be true, I would admit it without a devoted fight.
Generally speaking, circumstances were not getting any better, the only obvious improvements would be my self-control, though lack of accuracy. Well, in other words, full of potentials.
Emotions being upside down is a shitty experience, hope others don’t have to suffer these kind of things, though it is inevitable.
Yeap, kind of fate believer now. Anyway, restless still indeed, like an annoying fever, makes me dazzy. Guess time and resources are needed, like, a lot .
F*cking reality, right?
C’est la vie.
